You are 4 months old little one!!!

This was on his actual four month birthday 3/23/12

Time really does fly when you are having fun!!! I CANNOT believe you are already four months old! I just finished making your 0-3 month photobook and I almost had a meltdown because it really is sad how fast you are growing. Everyone says it passes in a blink of the eye! It sure does. Every stage is more and more fun watching you learn and grow, but it does make me sad to see how tiny you were just a few months ago. You are such a sweet boy, and have become so "talkative" and smiley in the past few weeks. You grin with your ENTIRE body! If we go out of your line of vision and come back, you just smile ear to ear. Your mommy and daddy love when you smile at us. You pretty much smile at everyone, but you do give most people the once over very seriously before you bust out with your HUGE, gorgeous, gummy grin! I rememeber watching you sleep in those early days and whenever you started dreaming your little eyes would flutter and your lips would draw up into the sweetest little grin. We couldn't wait for you to give us a real smile. It makes our hearts skip a beat everytime you flash that smile.

I know everyone thinks there baby is the cutest baby alive, but your daddy and I know you are. At least to us (and all your extended family). You are just so animated. Your little eyebrows still arch all the time, and you just light up when you talk. It is like it takes everything in you to make those sweet sounds. You just coo and ahh all the time now. You really do seem to think you know what you are saying. You are most talkative in the AM right after you eat and between five and six. I know I say this everytime I do an update on you, but your mommy and daddy fall more and more in love with you every second. We look at you and can't believe you are ours. You are so perfectly made by God. I hope you always know how loved you are. I also hope you always keep your sweet spirit that is already so evident. It is a joy and a blessing to be your parents. We thank God every day for choosing us to be your mommy and daddy. If I never accomplish anything else in this life it won't matter because you are enough. You are everything.

So....enough with the crazy, mushy, mommy talk! Today you had your four month check bright and early! You scored an A+ as usual. You weighed in at 15.10 ounces and were 25.7 inches long. Your noggin was 43cm. You are in the 75th percentile in all areas. Daddy thinks you are a bit longer because you didn't want to stretch your little leg to get measured. You were too busy being a ham! The doctor said you are growing right on target and look PERFECT! Of course we already knew that! You do have a little rash going on in your chubby neck and chest from heat/drool/friction. The doctor suggested loading you up with Aquaphor and using hydrocortisone two times/day. That will hopefully help. You have such sensitive skin and it is really hard to get in your chunky neck. You luckily don't mind us digging in there to lube you up and wash you. You are so laid back that way. You will just let us do anything to you. Speaking of that, you were happy as a clam the entire appointment...then..WHAM.....stabbed in your thigh...TWICE! The first was such a shock you just stared wide eyed then WHAM again!!!! HOLY HANK!!!! You were like..."save me PLEASE!!!" It was pitiful! You calmed pretty easy and we dressed you and scidadled outa there! You were out like a light in two seconds flat in the car. Mommy gave you Tylenol right before the shots and twice more today. You may have felt a tad warm but don't seem bothered by them at all. You actually just woke up at 4:45 after napping almost three hours!!! You have become the super napper mommy knew you could be this past week! HOORRAAY!!! The doctor also suggested we start a little rice cereal so we will hopefully do that soon. We aren't in too big of a rush since you do have your ENTIRE life to eat food, and you are doing fine for now with just breastmilk. Food is just extra the first year anyhow. Mommy has to work pretty much every weekend in April, and of course, mommy and daddy want to feed you together for the first time. We will wait until we have a morning together to get the show on the road. We ordered a book and your highchair and a couple other feeding "accersories" off Amazon this week so we will be all set to go. We (mommy) are going to make your food instead of jar food so that should be interesting. Mommy is really becoming quite the crunchy little momma with breastfeeding, cloth diapers, making baby food, and buying all organic or "green" cleaning products (except the occasional bleach for the toilets and bathroom areas you don't "swim" in) Ha!

What are you up to these days CASH!!!???

• Well, you LOVE TV!! I know...bad, bad momma! I can't help it. You like your "shows" man! Actually, as I am typing this you are happy as a clam watching Dora and playing on your playmat. I am pretty sure Dora just said they were going to cocaine island too! I hope I am wrong. We only let you "watch" after you eat/play in the AM so we can get a cup of coffee and feed/let out the dogs and in the evening you like to play on your mat and watch for about ten-twenty minutes or so. We don't always just leave you playing alone on the mat though! We do hang out with you 95% of your waking hours. Can you tell I feel judged? Ha!
• Your fav shows are Baby Einstein, Dora, Bubbleguppies, Fanklin and Friends, and Team Umizumi (sp?) Actually, I think these are your dad's favorite shows (and Weeza likes them ALL)!
• You like to sit in your bumbo like a big boy and play.
• You put EVERYTHING in your mouth including your best buddy, Miller's arm. Anna sat him next to you and you went to town. He didn't seem to mind even though you chomp pretty hard when I let you get a hold of my finger. Poor Miller.
• You can even almost get your paci in your mouth. You get all cross eyed trying to master it. It is so funny. I will be super happy when you learn that trick.
• You think you can hold your bottle by yourself. You don't know that you need to hold it up high so you don't suck air though so we help you.
• You like to sit in our laps while we type on the computer (what you are doing now...see he doesn't just watch tv!) What did parents do without technology?
• You have started to notice your bulldog sisters the past few days. Mostly just Weeza because she is ALWAYS in your face! You look at her like WTH??? Ha! Hopefully you will become best buds!
• You still eat every three hours during the day starting at around 7-7:30 when you wake up on your own. You will sometimes cry out around 4 or 5 (very rarely). You just want your paci then it is right back to dreamland. You have started talking to your imaginary friends around 6:30, but don't get upset for a while. It is so nice to be woken up to sweet sounds rather than ear piercing "I AM DIEING OF STARVATION" noises!
• You haven't required too much "extra" feedings lately and that has been nice on mommy! I think it may be because when you go to Mrs. Ines's house she sometimes gives you an extra bottle. You don't mind it!
• You seem to really like Mrs. Ines and she likes you. She is so great. Every time we go to take/pick you up it is so calm at her house. I don't know how she keeps all you kiddos in line. She is a saint. We are so lucky to have her right in the neighborhood.
• You are super close to rolling over. You get those legs going and try to kick yourself over. Too bad you will probably just be mad when you figure out you are on your tummy. Ha! You were trying to roll off the table today at the doctor.
• You are still a pooping machine! It has become mostly just once or twice a day though. We usually only have to change your clothes once every few days too so that is nice. The blowouts aren't has frequent with the cloth that is for sure.
• We love cloth!!!
• You still LOVE your bathtime. We still bathe you in the big tub. You have a little mesh seat we use because you are a tad heavy to just hold in now. You like to sit up in the tub and "stand" (with a lot of assistance) on the side. Pretty soon you will be sitting in there without help
• You love to go on walks/jogs. Mommy is trying to become a runner and you are helping her by loving the stroller! The BOB is still mommy's most prized baby purchase! A MUST!
• You go night night after your bath and BIG bottle at 7 or 8 and sleep until 7 then nap at least once a day for a good stretch. It is usually for two or even three hours around 11 or sometimes 2 if we aren't home for the AM nap. You usually still catnap for about 45 minutes to an hour at 8:30 or 9 and sometimes in the evenings between 5 and 6. We realized you need to be home in your bed for a good nap once a day so you stay our happy, sweet boy. You will usually wake up after about thirty minutes to an hour and want your paci then go back to sleep for another hour or so. Such a good boy!
• You are wearing 6-9 month clothes. Such a big boy.
• You love to read! You will just sit in our lap and look at the book. We also like to let you hear your nursery rhyme book your Nana, Grandpa, and Aunts made you! We don't want you to forget what a Boston accent sounds like!
• Your hair is still a dark blonde, but seems to be lightening up even more. I think it will be the same color as your dads for sure. You do look just like him.
• You still love your swing as long as it is facing the TV. You could care less about the mirror on it anymore, and if I put it where you couldn't see the TV you would NOT LIKE IT! ADDICTED MUTCH!
• You try to sit up in your car seat and play with your little toy! We are in trouble when you learn how to crawl!
• You seem to love your mommy. When I am zipping around doing stuff and daddy has you; you just watch me like a hawk. I secretly LOVE this! I hope you will always love me this much.
• Speaking of loving me; sometimes you just don't want me to put you down for one second. It is so funny. If you can't see me you get so upset. Sometimes if you can hear me you are ok for a minute. So funny.

Lordy me!!! I think that is enough for today. I would say I will be better about updated, but we know that isn't going to happen anytime soon. Working full time, cooking, cleaning, running errands, crafting, (barely), and working out makes for one busy momma! No complaints here though! I LOVE IT! It is the BEST life! Now for pics of the most handsome man I know!

Holy HANK...that is a hairy human!

Funny little ones!

Action shot with the drool!

Smiling with his ENTIRE body!

Enough with the flash Mom!

Irish lovebug!



You light up our lives little boy!

Going Back Is Hard to Do

So, the time has come! The day I have dreaded most, and at times forgot that would ever happen. I must return to work! To say this makes me sad is an understatement. I have been extremely blessed with what will be almost 15 weeks of time with my precious boy, but somehow that is still not enough. I am also extremely blessed in the fact that I don't have to return to a 9-5 5 days a week, but somehow that is still not enough. Finally, I am also blessed to have found what I believe will be a great place for him to be cared for right in our neighborhood, but somehow still....NOT ENOUGH! I want to be with him every second of every day. I want to be the one to feed him, play with him, teach him, and watch him grow EVERY single day. For almost four months I have spent every moment of his waking life (except for 1-3 hours every now and then) with him, caring for him, and loving him. That is where I want to be. I want to be the one ALL THE TIME! My heart aches that what I want can not be. I need to return to work. I need to make my "own" money. I need to be around others, and do something other than care for him. In the beginining staying at home felt VERY lonely. We have been so blessed to have had family here with us for his birth and all the holidays, and we traveled to see the rest of our family. When all the family first left, and the holidays were over, I was lonely and sad and bored even. This was the first time since I have started working that I have not worked for more than two weeks at a time. But as time has gone on, Cash and I have gotten into a groove. We stay pretty busy. I get to see my friends when I want to see them. I can make appointments, etc. without having to think about when I will sleep. I take him to the gym with me. I take him to the grocery with me. We play, we take walks, we walk around Target and pretend like we can afford to buy things. We get to go to church as a family every weekend because I don't have to worry about work. We skype with Nana, we take no less than 100,000 pictures and videos a day, and send them to family. We have a good time and I don't want it to end. But, alas all good things must come to an end! Lucky for both of us, me going back to work will not be too much of a change. I will be working most Sunday and Thursday nights and weekends every now and then. Frank will be here on those weekends, and that time with his son will be wonderful for both baby and daddy. Mommy will be sleeping instead of hovering over, and Frank will find his own groove with Cash. They will have fun...just the boys. On Mondays and Fridays I will sleep while Cash goes to Mrs. Ines's house to play and learn with the other kiddos. He will be just down the street, and I will be fine.

I will keep telling myself that I will be fine until I really am fine......

I will cherish these first almost four months of my baby boy's life, and the time where I was the one who cared for him every day. We will adjust and be just fine. If I had it my way he would stay 4 months old forever, and I would make what I make at work every week without working. That would be the life. I know I sound like I am probably complaining. It's not like I have to work all day every day. I realize that, and am so thankful I decided to become a nurse so that I can work full time and still be home the majority of the time. I might be a little sleep deprived, but that's ok. I can do it. And after I get a few checks in the bank, Cash and I can mosey around Target AND actually buy some things. Ha!

So if anyone reads this silly blog; can you send up a little prayer for mommy on Sunday at 6:00pm? I will be heading to work for the first time. Cash will only be awake for two more hours before he goes down for night, but when I come home in the AM he will be one day older, and already have had a bottle instead of me feeding him his first meal of the day. I know it is silly, but that makes me sad. I know that when I walk in the door and see his sweet gummy grin everything will be just fine. We will be fine.

So, for now I am going to cherish my last few days as a pretend SAHM, and remember how lucky I am to have had these past four months to learn how to be a mommy. They have been the BEST months.

I love you sweet boy, and will always be thinking of you even when we are apart.

You are 12 weeks little man!

12 weeks old!

• Mommy got on the scale with you and looks like you are around 14 pounds!!! Wow!!!
• You are smiling ALL THE TIME these days! You just grin and grin when you see mommy or daddy....or really any new face after you check them out for a second.
• Mommy thinks she heard a small chuckle the other day...we know it is close bc you will smile with your mouth WIDE open sometimes and you look like you want to giggle so bad.
• You are starting to do MUCH better at tummy time now that you can hold yourself up better. You pretty much can hold up your entire chest and head, but you do tire easily and get frustrated.
• You will roll over onto your back during tummy time sometimes. Seems more like your head makes you topple over! ha!
• You are sleeping from around 730 or 8pm to 6 or 7am. You did start waking this week around 1-3. All you want is your paci and you go right back to dreamland.
• We still bathe you each night around 7 and give you your HUGE bottle (7-8 ounces) of mixed breastmilk and formula.
• You have even sometimes needed a little "extra" if you are really hungry. BIG BOY!
• I think you are having a growth spurt this week because you have seemed really hungry throughout the day and are wanting that extra at night.
• Your day routine is pretty lax but mommy has been trying to do more naps in your crib.
• You used to REFUSE to nap in there, but this past weekend decided it was ok. You even fell right to sleep a couple times.
• You MUST have your paci to nap! We don't always swaddle you for naps either. You seems to like to be cozy with blankies around you. (and mommy just watches you on the monitor like a freak).
• You like to have your face covered with a blankie to nap (another cause for concern for mommy) and if being held MUST be held tight and close.
• You fight naps sometimes like a WILD beast, but have seemed a lot better about that this week.
• On the go is the way you like it! You will sleep so well in the car (once we get going) and in the sling/stroller...as long as we keep it moving!
• You wake up to eat between 6-7, then eat at 10, 1, 4, snack at 5, and big bottle at bedtime at 730. You prefer to breastfeed and then require a bottle after for at least two of your feedings during the day (usually the 10 and1). If mommy doesn't give you the extra bottle you will not nap well and usually want to eat between feeds. Mommy doesn't mind because you are such a happy baby when you are full!
• When mommy goes in to get you in the mornings you are usually sideways in the bed! Swaddled and all, but somehow turn completely sideways! It is crazy.
• If I don't wait too long to pick you up after a nap, you will see me and just smile so sweet. If I wait too long you will scream because you are STARVING! ha!
• You do seem gassy sometimes and the gripe water seems to help with that.
• You are still BLOWING it out pretty much after EVERY feed during the day. We moved up to size two diapers at 10 weeks and they seem to contain the mess a ton better. It was getting pretty old Mr!
• Mommy has now taken apart and washed the carseat twice and your bouncy chair twice..swing once! Not fun! We have put burp cloths in all your seats now to try to help with that. Luckily, we haven't had any major events since we got home from Memphis (where you went through four outfits in one day).
• You started "talking" last week too. You will just coo and coo. You also make the sweetest ah noise too. If we say hi to you, you sound like you say it back sometimes. So sweet!
• We have also realized that Baby Einstein is like baby CRACK!!! YOU LOVE IT! You actually seem to like all cartoons, but the baby Einstein will make you stop crying instantly. We try not to let you watch tv too much. Only when we need to shower or eat and you aren't napping. ha!
• Your big sister, Weeza, loves some Baby Einstein too! ha! She has never paid the tv any attention until now. She is mesmorized just like you!
• You still don't grab at things too much, but do seem to notice toys more. You have found your hands and LOVE to put your entire hand in your mouth (and even gag yourself at times).
• You only spit up a little when you guzzle too much down too fast!
• Your hair and eyes seems to be getting lighter. We are pretty sure your eyes will be blue, but still can't tell if your hair wants to be blonde or a little red! We are pulling for red!
• You usually nap around 830 or 9 until 10, around 11 or 12 until 1, and around 2 or 3 until 4. I try to not let you sleep more than thirty minutes after 5 since you will be going to bed at 730. You will usually catnap around 630.
• You seem to get cranky around the evenings. I think your body is just getting ready for the long stretch of sleep.
• You still LOVE your bath as long as you aren't too hungry. If mommy doesnt give you the 5pm "snack" feed you scream bloody murder until that bottle touches your lips.

There are no words to express how much your mommy and daddy love you. You are the most perfect baby in the whole world! I wish we could stop time and keep you this way forever, but I know you must keep growing. God surely blessed us when he chose us to parent you!

Love you....forever and always!

So....I need to get it together

My sweet,  sweet boy will be 12 weeks on Wednesday, Feb 15.... 12 WEEKS!!!!! That makes me sad and happy all in one! I cannot believe how fast time has flown. And of course, my last post was when he was two weeks old. I am so mad at myself for that because this his how I am going to log about his growth and changes; and here we are at almost three months and I haven't recorded a single memory. Of course I remember some things, but in just reading my last post (when he was two weeks old) I was brought back to his early days!!! Boy has he changed since then! So, so much!! He is such a BIG boy now. Our infant days are behind us and we have a full flegged BABE on our hands! He really is such a sweet, sweet baby. We are so darn lucky for that. He started sleeping through the night right around six weeks. He just kind of gradually did it on his own. He started out going from 9-2 around two weeks then stretched that out to 3 until around five weeks. It then became 4 and 5, and then WAM...6am!!! We didn't even have to do any "cry it out" nights or anything. We are so lucky for that because I don't know if I would have been able to do it. He is so pitiful when he gets upset and NOTHING seems to settle him but eating! I know that sometimes they wake even when they are not hungry or wet, but the few times he has had "bad" nights it has been because he was hungry. By his 2 month check he was sleeping through the night regularly. He had grown A TON by then too. He weighed in at 11.11 (75th percentile) and was 24.25 inches long (95th percentile)! His little head had grown too...15 inches (only 0.5 bigger). WOW!!! We knew he was getting big because he was eating soo much, but I didn't think he was almost 12 pounds! Dad guessed better than mommy. He knew he was at least 11 and mommy was thinking more like 10. At his one month appointment (at 3 weeks) he was only 8.14 and 22.75 inches so he did A LOT of growing in 5 weeks. He was so funny at his one month appointment...peed EVERYWHERE while being weighed. HA!!! He used to always pee when his diaper was off. He hasn't been doing that anymore luckily...but....he sure does like to poop through his diapers. More on that later! It seems like the week of Christmas he did ALL that growing. He was still wearing all his newborn stuff that week and I was actually feeling like we were running out of clothes because everything seemed so big. His auntie Leandra actually went and bought him some more newborn clothes too. He wore those for about a week and WAM...0-3 months fit! Those fit for about  2 weeks and now we have been in all 3-6 since around 9 weeks. He is just so long so some things are too short for his long legs.

His two month check up went well. He was so pitiful during/after his shots though! Seeing him get stuck made me so sad. I feel bad for all the babies I have to stick at work, and seeing my own child go through that makes me even more sad. He was so happy the entire appointment and then HELLO!!! His scream was just pitiful, and his little whimper after was even worse. He was pretty pitiful that day as well. I gave Tylenol throughout the day and evening. I never took his temp, but he felt warm to me. He is also usually such a PIG, but that day didn't seem as hungry. He woke up the following AM at 3:30 starving. I fed him and then he woke up again for the day at 6:00am. He seemed much better the next day. We will have more shots at his 4 month check. So sad! Hopefully he will do well with those. The doctor did notice that his left hip was still "clicking" on exam when she rotated it. That should be gone by that age. She wanted us to get an ultrasound of his little hips just to be sure. We did that the following week and everything looked normal. We will see if he still has the click at his four month check. I noticed it after she told me, but have not felt it lately.

So Christmas was AMAZING! Having all Frank's family stay with us was just PERFECT. It got a little crazy at times. We had two air mattresses in our room at one point. I told my soon to be brother in law, Ken that if he saw my lamp on to not look up because that meant the boobies were out. Cash was still getting up around 3-4 at the the time to feed. He made sure to keep his eyes covered whenever the light was on. We just spent the week hanging out and cuddling Cash. I even ventured out and left Cash with his grandparents for a couple hours to have a drink with Frank and his sisters. It was a GREAT time! Leandra's boyfriend came in town and they stayed through the new year. They rented a hotel on the beach. Frank's best friend (and Cash's Godfather) came in town with his wife (and two crazy dogs) for NYE. We had a blast that weekend. We went downtown on NYE (during the day) and had a yummy lunch at Leaf. Cash had a MASSIVE blowout in his carseat. I picked him up and could see it on everyone's faces on the patio that he was covered in poop. I took him to the car to clean him up and feed him then returned to enjoy my lunch with everyone. ha! I was a pro already! We drove out to Lee and Steve's hotel after because it was such a beautiful day. Nothing like taking your five week old baby to the beach on NYE. We rang in the new year hanging out at the house watching all the crazy dogs play. It was great. The next day we went and toured Middleton Place plantation with everyone. I think it was 70 degrees that day. Crazy! We were there last spring with Nicole and Luca and it wasn't even that warm. It was surreal remembering Frank pushing Luca's stroller around that place not even a year ago, and there we were with our very own stroller and baby. Who would have thunk it??? We had to say goodbye the following day to everyone. I cried like a baby (again) when Lee left!!! It was just so nice to have everyone's company. Cash started smiling intentionally that week as well. It was so sweet to see him smile at Lee. I am so happy she got to see that before she left. He pretty much would only smile at her at that point. We did everything in our power to get the tiniest grin from that boy then. He was a little stingy with his smiles at that point. Nowadays, he is a grinning machine. He is VERY close to full on giggling as well.

Once everyone left it was just me and the babes for a while. I was pretty lonely at first. I think having everyone around all day made the days of just me and Cash seem too quiet. My friend Anna was busy birthing her baby Miller too so I didn't get to see her. Now that Miller has been here for six weeks, we have been busy visiting her and her coming to visit us weekly. It is so nice to have a friend going through the same things as me. Miller is so sweet, and I just know Cash and him are destined to be best buds! My friend Jackie keeps me busy too. She is my workout partner. Her family is the sweetest. I just love her little girl Gabby and Gabby loves her some Cash. She even spent the night one night and hung out with Frank, Cash, and I. Jackie has kept Cash for me while I went to the doc and will again this week so I can go to a work thing. She loves her some Cash too!

Since this post is more like a book; I am going to end it here. I am actually going to do another post for his 12 weeks and what we have been up to. I am PROMISING myself that I will at least do one post a week about Cash because I feel like I am forgetting so much. I know it is silly. He has to grow, but I just want to remember when he was my little baby. It is all still going by too fast. I will be returning to work in less than three short weeks. I can't even think about it without wanting to cry. I am lucky that I will for the most part still be able to be with Cash, but I wish I could be rich and continue my stay at home mom stint. I keep telling myself it will be good for me to get out, but don't believe it. I want to be here with him and not tired from working all night. Such is life.....suck it up, right? It will be fine!


I will leave this ridiculously LONG post with some pictures from his 1 month and 2 month photo shoot! My sweet boy has grown so much! I love him more every day!

Tiny Reindeer boy!

he has changed so much!

Becoming my big baby!

Newborn LOVE!!

The past few weeks have been a whirlwind to say the least! We welcomed our sweet, sweet angel baby November 23 at 8:42am and our lives and hearts were changed forever at that moment. It was such an amazing day and still feels like a dream. I have been meaning to blog about everything so that I never forget all the special details of the day we met our little Wilson Cash. It was so wonderful having Frank's mother and father here for the days leading up to and the week following Cash's arrival. I will NEVER be able to thank or repay Sue for her support and love while she was here. It really does all feel like a dream because it was all just so perfect. She made our transition home so easy and carefree..always waiting on everyone, cleaning, cooking, taking care of our pups, and of course snuggling her first grandson. She is such a blessing. We love you so much NANA Sue. It was so sweet to see her with Cash. I know they will always have a special bond. It was EXTREMELY hard to say goodbye. This momma cried and cried for two days. I just want/need her closer and I think Cash does too. I know if it is God's plan it will happen one day. Until then, we will just have to cherish the times we do have together and I sure will cherish those two weeks. The good news is she is coming BACK!!! The whole Conroy gang will be here for Christmas in just a few short weeks! YIPPEE! It is gonna be a full house for sure. I LOVE it!! It might get a little crazy, but isn't that what Christmas is all about? It isn't the presents or decorations...it is about spending time with the ones you love and celebrating Jesus Christ. That is exactly what we will be doing on Cash's first Christmas..all together! I just wish all my Memphis family could come too! It is super hard living far from everyone. We just miss all our family so much..especially around the holidays.

So, back to my favorite little person....He is PERFECT! I am that crazy, annoying girl on facebook who posts no less than 100,555,000,000 pictures to facebook EVERY DAY! It is hard not too..he is just so darn cute! I am sure I have lost some friends on my feed these past two weeks but I don't care...Nana Sue and all Cash's family away need to see him and that is the easiest way to let them see him all day...and when your day consists of feeding, rocking, feeding, rocking...getting on facebook and posting pics passes the time. I just don't want to miss or forget a second of these days. They are so fleating so I want to cherish every second.

Frank and I feel like he changes every day. He is growing every second right before our eyes. I know he has to grow and every stage will bring us a different type of happiness; but it is hard for me to think about him getting bigger. I want him to stay this little forever (but maybe sleep through the night). He is just the sweetest little baby. Don't get me wrong..he can scream! Oh boy can he scream! He has no in between button..he is either asleep, awake and content or screaming bloody murder! He usually only screams when he is hungry (about every three hours). As soon as he starts eating he is good to go. It is so funny the way he gets so worked up then...BAM...calm! Ha!! He has two parents that like to eat too, so we understand. He is eating every three hours during the day and goes from 9-2 at night (will try to push that to 3 soon) and then up again at 6am and 9am..so not too bad for being breastfed! We give him a breastmilk bottle at the 9pm feed to make sure he gets enough to sustain him till 2am. He wolfs down 4ounces..hungry boy! He is a little burpy/gassy and I think that bothers him sometimes, but other than that he is content. He LOVES to be swaddled and sleep in his bed with his sound machine going. I think he just gets his best rest that way. We try to get at least two naps in his crib a day and the others he will take on walks or in the car or in his swing. He loves all those things too. He is also a big SUCKER...loves his paci..but only the newborn green ones from the hospital. I tried the NUK and another kind and he acted like it was gagging him..drama king! ha!

So all in all he is a wonderful baby and such a blessing. We hope he stays this way. We feel very lucky that so far he is pretty content and happy. Frank and I both LOVE being parents. We are just one happy family. The doggies are another story (well Amelia at least). Weeza seems to love her brother. She is always watching him and sitting by him. She loves to sniff and lick him. Amelia seems to be taking a bit longer to accept him. She seems a little sad. She just remembers when she was the only child and probably misses those days. Poor girl. They are still getting tons of loving. We walk them when we take Cash and make sure they get tons of kisses. They just don't get as much snuggle time with mommy because Cash is usually taking that time up. We will eventually get in a routine and they hopefully will grow to love and protect him.

I know this post is SUPER long and probably SUPER boring to most, but it is my little memory log. Like I said, I don't want to ever forget these days so I am going to try to be better and do weekly posts about little Cash so one day I can look back at my first days as a mommy. I know these are going to be my best memories. We are just so in love (did I already say that?). We are also very thankful for all our many blessings. We feel very blessed. All our friends and family have also been so amazing. Thanks to everyone who has come to visit or sent goodies to Cash. You have all made us feel very loved. Cash can't wait to meet everyone near and far!

I better wrap this LONG post up because time is running out before the next feeding. Such is life these days...our poor Christmas tree is still sitting bare and the lights outside are still not finished but it will get done one day soon. We have more important things to attend to these days. Here are a few sweet images of our little angel.

OMG!! This pic just makes me laugh!

Monthly pics by his HUGE lion!

Only a couple hours old!

He is just perfect!

little feetsies!

My rudolph baby!

Two LOVES!

Our family!

Mommy and baby!

NANNA SUE is here, beach days, and baby things!

So Cash's grandpa and Nanna made it safe and sound today from Boston! So excited to have my sweet, sweet mother in law here with me! I am so lucky to have her in my life. So many women don't have close relationships with their mother-in-laws and I count my blessings every day that mine is such a wonderful person. I mean how could she not be??? She did raise my amazing husband. It is so hard living so far away from all our family so moments like these are precious. Getting to show her all of Cash's baby things and seeing her face light up is just priceless. Of course she started boo hooing as soon as she walked in his room. She is such a mess. That is why I LOVE her so much. We are going to have such a wonderful two weeks together and then again at Christmas. So glad she will get to experience our first moments as new parents with us. She will surely be a HUGE help.

I am going to have her in the delivery room with us as well. I just think having her by my side will make things all the more special. She is just like a mother to me. Can't say enough how much she means to me. I know Cash is going to LOVE his Nanna too!

This is a funny face I am making..she was probably saying something silly!

So we got them all settled in and gave them the tour of our new house/neighborhood. Now we are going to hang out and wait for Cash to come. I know I have posted pics of his room before, but it is all complete now so here are pics with everything ready and waiting. Also, we took the girls to the beach a couple weeks ago to visit Katherine and baby Tyler. They had a blast. I think they miss the beach now that we live farther away. They were pooped all night after playing so hard. Love my first babies!

Beach BABES!

Getting her workout in!

Love his daddy's hobby horse and mommy's lion!

Can't wait to have him in his crib!

Got to have his Redsox hat!

He is all set with tons of books!

Sweet baby clothes



Washed and ready to go!



So hopefully we will meet our little guy by Wed night if not sooner. Yesterday I was in NESTING overdrive! I cleaned the entire house ALL morning to get ready for our inlaws then decided I needed to go to Michaels and get all the things I will need for a baby shower I am throwing in December (which I think was a good idea considering Cash will only be like three weeks old then) and to top it off I found these cute free print outs for Thanksgiving on Pinterest that were too cute to not do something with. What did I do you say? I made caramel/chocolate dipped pretzel rods to take to the hospital and give to the nurses. I also made some really cute chocolate dipped oreos that look like turkeys. I am a freak. My kitchen looked like a tornado hit it, but the pretzels turned out super cute. What nurse doesn't like to be told thank you (esp. on Thanksgiving). Maybe they will be extra sweet to us too! ha!

Finished product! I made regular chocolate too but they were drying!

These looked a little funny but tasted YUMMO!

YOWZA!!!!

So please come SOON baby boy because MOMMA needs to STOP NESTING!!! I am sure daddy would appreciate that too! Sorry for the picture overload! MEMORIES!!!

The Waiting Game

So, once again I have been planning on posting for WEEKS and just never sat down to do it. It's funny because I read so many blogs daily where they come up with interesting things to write about (and that is what brings me back); but I can't keep up with my own. It is probably because I really don't have that much interesting things to talk about. I do need to get better so that I don't forget any of the little moments that are coming up with Cash's arrival. We have had a busy as usual past couple of weeks starting with my BESTEST and her sis in law (who I also love) coming to visit. They brought there VERY adorable, sweet, handsome, and BUSY toddler boys with them. WOWZA!!! Talk about a rude awakening. It was one FUN, FUN weekend but I am suprised it didn't put me in labor. I kept having to remind myself that I was only having ONE child in a couple weeks and he would not be coming out 17 months old. I need to ease in to that one. I seriously do not know how parents of twins do it. You need four hands just for one. They really are the two sweetest little boys, and it was such a joy to have them visit. I can definately learn a thing or two from those incredible mommas. They don't skip a beat. They are doing such a great job at raising two wonderful little men. I hope I am just as good at being a mommy as they are. It really is a hard job. I hope I am ready.

We had an AMAZING weekend! We hung out around the house, ate a TON, went to a pumpkin patch, farmers market, the beach, AND the JUMP CASTLES!!! Now that last one may have been a mistake. The next day after dropping the ladies and babes off at the airport my feet became HUGE and BP decided to go up to 160/100 or some crazy number like that. No BUENO! By the time I went to the doc that afternoon for my 36 week appointment it was back down, but I did have trace protein in my urine dip. I was suppposed to work that night, but that was not going to happen. I decided to take it easy and rest for the night and was back at work the next day. It took me a couple days to feel "normal" again, but I came around. It was all well worth it, because there is nothing like having my Nicole here. She is my rock. I miss her so much. Times have surely changed for us two ladies (she is already deep into mommyhood and I am well on my way). Our days of bar hopping and not having a care in the world may be long gone, but no matter how old we get or how much life changes one thing remains.....our friendship. Our relationship is one of those rare ones that last forever. I am so lucky to call her my friend. Luckily, she will be visiting in January to meet her godson and we are heading to Memphis before I go back to work. Lots of time with my bestest! YIPPEE!!!

He was ready to DRIVE!

These boys were so good in the car! POOPED!

Grayson and his sweet mommy Erin..OBSESSED with his RED HAIR!

So glad we go to take them to the beach!

I can't believe it has been three weeks since they were here. Time is flying (but moving oh so slow at the same time). Our weeks have been full of working, doc appointments, last minute To do's, Halloween, and just waiting. Cash is making progress and will be here Wed 11/23 if not sooner. We may be hanging in the hospital on Thanksgiving, but that is ok with me (I will hopefully be holding our perfect little son and thanking God for all his amazing gifts). What more could you ask for? I have one more week of work starting Monday and Frank's mom and dad will be here next Saturday. We will find out Wed at my 39 week appointment if I have made any more progress. Otherwise, we wait. I am for sure feeling VERY pregnant these past couple of days. Work is KILLING me, but I hopefully can stick it out. I have been getting alot of Braxton Hicks contractions and some cramping (that is new) so I think Cash is for sure making it known that he is getting ready. I still CANNOT wrap my head around the fact that Frank and I will be looking at our SON in a week and a half. CRAZY! You would think ten months of nonstop baby talk would get me ready, but NO SIR! I am still as freaked out as I was at 7 weeks preggo. I am so ready to meet him, and so ready to NOT BE PREGNANT...but so NOT READY to actually birth him and do not feel ready AT ALL to be a MOM! I am sure all new moms feel the same way. At least I hope. We will just take it one day at a time. Ready or not, right?

So now we wait. We wait to meet our firstborn. We spend our last few days as just two (four including our fur babes). We try to cherish these last few days so that we can try and remember what is was like "before". We dream of what it will be like. We try to imagine it all. It really is amazing. I would not want to be doing this with any other man. I love my husband more than this world and am so blessed to call him my partner. He is my better half. He is my calm. I cannot wait to see what the two of us have created. To get to know him. I hope he is just like his daddy. I hope he always knows how loved he is and was from the very first time I saw/heard his little heartbeat. No matter what, I will always remember these past 9/10 months as some of the happiest in our life so far. There is just nothing like it. We are very blessed to have had a wonderful pregnancy and I pray that everything continues to be just as perfect. Please say a little prayer for us as we begin our journey into parenthood. Hopefully I will not be bad and post before Cash gets here, but more than likely my next post will be all about our PERFECT baby boy!

Wish us luck!